I have spent the last three years learning photography. the link below is the video of my final project.
I did my project on PCOS and the five stages of grief. We handed it in, in book form and video form.
I am currently fixing the book to make available for sale.
just copy and past into google.
In sight you are blind Salt and taste I find a touchless life The sound goes unheard Breath deep.
With eyes that are mine
I watch the battle from the outside
hands tied
Useless
I am
You struggle, I don’t understand
So we yell, we cry
we love
You wont servive
distoryed by your own mind
You are not you, but you are you
So memory is where I find the whole of what used to be
A stranger stands here now, where you used to be
Please understand and be patient with me
I don’t understand
The stranger of the face of a person I once knew stands in front of me
sorry dont have a title yet for this, it is about how i feel useless in watching as my father is going through dementia.
Mirror, reflect truths of hidden pain
It is impossible to stay the same
Denial don’t leave
Broken, naked the truth bares down on me
Hide no more, in darkness my friend
Denial has left, the door wide open
Truth is here holding tight
Embrace torn apart
Comfort is found
eyes leave the lies behind
Denial no longer lives here
Return descender, my dear.
Deny, deny, deny
You the enemy standing in front of me
The light, the light the light
Darkness will hide
With closed eyes, I will continue this life
Untouched by change, I will be the same
Hide, hide hide,
Out of sight
Run I will from the truth you hold
Eyes closed shut
Deny, deny, deny
Dienal my bed fellow
Denial I live, eyes wide shut
I do not believe in you
I will stay, be the same
Fight I will, red in sight
My fire burning bright
I am me, I don’t believe
Please take what you need
Give me back who I used to be
Turn back the clock, make this a dream
Pulled down and stripped
Lost, even in light
My pain, bruise and scare hidden from your sight
So it is my fate
To change, stripped from old
Reborn, I accept all that has gone before
Sneak and slither
Stare and hide
Wait to strike
Guard has gone
Find the weakest
There hidden in shadow
All along
No reason, or need
Strike is quick
Down there it goes
Griped at heart
Darkness take hold
Daylight and at night
Happy, sad doesn’t care
In depression, with despair
No one is ever aware
Herd I am
By made and man
Tunnel vision I see
Sounds of enclosed feet around me
Push and shove
Grunt, and fuck
Please and thank you
Unknown is what surrounds you
Doors and snores
Ready, mark go
Coffee and music
Strangers surround you
Head down and March
Run be fast
Doors nearly close, they just make it so
Hopeful looks, for one space or nook
Sore feet and long days
Always trying to look away
Sheep we are herd, and packed in tight
Find freedom at end of the night
Do it again I will
Tomorrow in circles without end
Little I see the world beneath me
Not one thought do I waste on thee
Importance not do you hold in my world
Yet hidden out of sight
You create my life
Your role is unnoticed and ignored
Changes you make
Hidden from plain sight
You are the base of the big tree
Hidden in earth, water and air
Your macro world
I do care.
I fear, good bye
I see you, but turn my back
I had to you see
Put it down, my suitcase, travel no more
One more good bye for the road
Your face locked to memory
I had to stay, feet planted
home is here not there
the final good bye
I let you go, your feet must be your own
I must be here and not there and every where
two worlds I no longer live
clouds and sunrise and set
living in and out of time no more
tickets and engines no worries
my heart will only hold you now, arms find empty air
good bye, good bye, good bye,
I do and will always love you
Creative Cha0s 